Spain :)

it was gorgeous lovely but very lonely.
our villa was in the middle of nowhere. at night everything was quite you could here someone drop something in the next valley. the only thing to do was sit by the pool and read. or think.
i did a lot of thinking this holiday, i was so far away from the problems i have at home.

it always seems easier to fix problems from far away, then you get home and your faced with decision painful decisions. and more heartache and arguments and more silence than you get in a massive Vally filled with silence.

i was going to stop just give it up, do what best for my heart and my feeling but that just not going to happen now.

well i might i hope i can stay away from the bad things, bad people and bad dreams.






Spain was amazing but it's not home, here's not home either.

A little spark of proud.

i haven't done much lately that i'm proud of but i'm a little proud.

life sucks and then you die, quite possibly true the way things have been going lately but i think things are on the up :) im heading off to Spain which i'm so looking forward to. my plan is to get away and to get some perspective on my situation. maybe try and grow up a little and put on my big girl pants face and see if i can get what i want...

I'll let you know how that goes.