far away..

i hate this feeling.. being to far away from home and everyone else :(

usally i wouldn't bother me, I dunno why i'm so stupidly possessive and irrational all the time.

i used to love it here, but theres too many memories, Tom, childhood things.. devoicing parents and loneliness.

i want to come home now.

I've kept having the sting of tears pop up all day and im not sure why, i just need to get home i think.


Bessie Chappell
ice cream
new
bracelets
watches
money
heart strings
phone calls
Llanthony
memories
Suri's bracelet
french pop music
David West Taylor
black out blinds
Blogs
Ngaio's birthday party
Sad heart
homesick

I was such a little emo kidd, im really sorry you had to put up with me.

the work never stops, schools so hard at the moment but I've got myself a tutor so i should be okay. i hate it. i started crying in school, about work.. i shouldn't mean this much to me but sadly it does. Hopeful it's gunne be okay, i need to get into a good uni.

Suri's going to Uni in a few months so that means no boyfriend, if we make it that far which i think we will becuase he awesome and we love each other.
maybe we'll surive it but if you think about it's pointless really, teenage love is beautiful and fleeting. i love him very much <3 but I'm not sure about how to deal with it seeing to go to his Uni i'll need 3 A's and a B so thats out the window.
I need to be with him, just sitting making me feel better by having him around, cheering me up and i know that he needs someone to make sure he continues to belive he's one of the best people i've ever met.
i dont really know how to deal with him going away...... but i want to believe that we could do the long distance thing but who know.









i love Suri but it's like a dark cloud over the dazzling beautiful thing that is us.

Llanthony

i really cant wait.

i really hope we get there all together and safe.

i really hope no one behaves stupidly.

if it goes well me Jess and Ngaio are god!




i love my boyfriend <3 so kind, having a night in tomorrow (Y) lots of cuddles.

JESSE i love you, I'd forgotten about how much i used to like hanging out with your, ofc we're no as close as once apon a time but that dosent lessen it at all how you would think it would.

Bessie- is an angel <3 i love her so much. i've never had one best friend really but she's fast becoming mine.


I failed my driving exam but hey ho let's not dwell.

little update <3