I was such a little emo kidd, im really sorry you had to put up with me.

the work never stops, schools so hard at the moment but I've got myself a tutor so i should be okay. i hate it. i started crying in school, about work.. i shouldn't mean this much to me but sadly it does. Hopeful it's gunne be okay, i need to get into a good uni.

Suri's going to Uni in a few months so that means no boyfriend, if we make it that far which i think we will becuase he awesome and we love each other.
maybe we'll surive it but if you think about it's pointless really, teenage love is beautiful and fleeting. i love him very much <3 but I'm not sure about how to deal with it seeing to go to his Uni i'll need 3 A's and a B so thats out the window.
I need to be with him, just sitting making me feel better by having him around, cheering me up and i know that he needs someone to make sure he continues to belive he's one of the best people i've ever met.
i dont really know how to deal with him going away...... but i want to believe that we could do the long distance thing but who know.









i love Suri but it's like a dark cloud over the dazzling beautiful thing that is us.