I hate this waiting, i've put myself out there I knew I wouldn't get a response but it still hurt.

I like him I really do, I want him to want to be with me.

I don't think he does though.

We'd work I think, At least I'd hope we would.

Lately i've been the worst version of myself. Not the person that you all deserve. For months I was bitching at you guys that you should be nicer to me, well i've skwered that up.

Good people do bad things. And bad people do bad things. I'm not a bad person but I did a terrible thing.

Not only to Ngaio but to everyone else that I hurt. I am truely sorry and theese last weeks i've sliently tought on my actions, my last one I do regret, it'll be the wrose I'll do.

I've changed, I'm not asking forgiveness just a chance to show it.


I love you guys.


He makes my heart squeeze and at the same time feel like it's too big for my chest <3